Sunday, May 30, 2004

haha.. check this out.. d post i wrote on d day i first met kenneth.. LOL! in 2004!

Sunday, May 30, 2004

hmm.. woke up 2dae 2 go 2 church..

d weird guy whu's kinda confined in camp currently,

gave me a call while i was in service.. lol.. he's like confined 4 3 charges..

1 is 4 commitin suicide, d 2nd is 4 tryin dangerous stunts on a bike in camp,

n d 3rd is i 4got alreadi..

damn messed up person sia.. feel a little sorry 4 d pathetic fella..

den after church.. hung around wif dad 4 abit..

went 2 d lib 2 borrow some bks 2 while away some of my free time..

at bout 4, scott dropped me a call n

asked if i wanted 2 watch d day after 2moro..

so i said ok.. n hadda wait bout 2 hrs 4 him n his fren 2 meet me..

grrr... longest time i've eva waited 4 some1..

n i actually broke my word on

"no outings wif frenz on sundays except on special occassions"..

hmm.. but im not interested in scott larz..

n he's not interested in me.. haha..

den went 2 eat at sakae sushi n starbucks..

den he dropped us both home n went 2 pick up his mum at d airport..

tink im gettin kinda scared off guys sia..

they're either desperate, or psychos, stalkers or rage/sex maniacs..

d stories scott n kenneth tell.. *shivers*

ah bengs.. hahaha..

maybe

came across this today. certainly struck me as it's something im gg through with atm.

Maybe. .

we were supposed to meet the wrong people

before meeting the right one

so that, when we finally meet the right person,

we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . .

it is true that we don't know

what we have until we lose it,

but it is also true that we don't know

what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe . . .

the brightest future will always

be based on a forgotten past;

after all, you can't go on successfully in life

until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe . .

you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet,

enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human,

and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe . . .

the happiest of people

don't necessarily have the best of everything;

they just make the most of everything

that comes along their way.

Maybe .. . .

the best kind of friend is

the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,

never say a word, and then walk away feeling

like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

Maybe . . .

happiness waits for all

those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched,

and all those who have tried,

for only they can appreciate the importance

of all the people who have touched their lives.

May be . .

you should do something nice

for someone every single day,

even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . . .

there are moments in life when you miss someone --

a parent, aspouse, a friend, a child --

so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams

and hug them for real,

so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe

giving someone all your love

with never an assurance that they will love you back.

Don't expect love in return;

just wait for it to grow in their heart;

but, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe .. . .

you should dream what you want to dream;

go where you want to go, be what you want to be,

because you have only one life and

one chance to do all the things

you dream of,

and want to do.

a lil tribute to my "emotion-filled bottle"

sighs. been v frustrated lately.

sometimes my emotions get away with myself and to get rid of all these negative feelings, i pour my feelings into this silly lil online diary..

and thank god, i don't take these feelings away with me when i logoff.

cos i'll prob b a v depressed wreck everyday, with a probably v obvious angry aura around me.

.sighs.

hahahaha..

anyways, been wanting to walk barefeet everywhere. think its my attempt at "keeping my feet on solid ground" hahaha.. im weird.. >.<

spent yesterday evening staring at the night sky

the moon's still beautiful even though it's really small and the stars haf been very faint lately.

btw, wanna give my love to u, my lil online bloggy thing. LOL

i really appreciate u. *MUAHX*

The Desiderata Poem

I've been feeling down this past couple of weeks and was wondering what I should do.
But Praise the Good Lord, for he never fails to remind me he's always around to answer my prayers.
He sent my director a message of encouragement, to pass on to me.


Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself to others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all it's sham drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

-- Max Ehrmann


Hope this will help any of my friends who are in troubled situations themselves. Always remember, he is always there for you as he has always been there for me. <3