~u'll always be a part of me~

i met ewok last night =)
haha. i don't really know what to say here.
except maybe to dedicate this song to u (its been playing in my head ever since i woke up)



i won't deny i still love u. i don't ever think love ever goes away (in my case), it just gets blurred over time. haha.. and u really meant the world to me at that time.. im such a sucker for love.. v loserish huh? n in a way, i think we got the best and worst out of each other, which is probably why it was the best time of our lives and also the scariest ever, period.

i don't know if its just the memories and the remnants of a feeling so strong that keeps us wanting for more. but ur right, we hafta move on. =D and i wish u all d best with the girl ur seeing now, after all, i know its hard for u to actually find some1 u'll be interested in. hahahaha..

we'll always be a part of each other. and being friends, we'll never have to "leave" each other ever again.. let's just keep what we had, a memory which we'll never ever lose.. God bless u, my dearest one. =D love u always~

hahaha.. im linking our song.. =P

090909

today was meant to be a special day

hahahahaha

wasn't that special after all..

although i was kind of hoping maybe i can start a new relationship by today

it would definitely make a good start. =D

oh wells, nevermind

but there's no denying that 9 is a special number

after all, which number can be multiplied and then that sum added together to form the original number again.

for example, 9x2 = 18, 1+8 =9

9x6 = 54, 5+4 =9

9x15 = 135, 1+3+5 =9

9x639= 5751, also forms 9.. and the list goes on etc..

haha.. random grade school trivia for you~ ;)

eeks

FREAKY!!!

a random stranger called out my name while i was travelling home today

and he definitely knows me

but i don't know him

SCARY!!!

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he paid me for the christian audigier hoodie

which was delivered to my house today

cos he said it was too expensive a present for me to give him

which is true cos there's nothing between us

but now i've got to find another birthday present for him

ahh damn, and i thought i didn't need to shop for his present

cos the hoodie was something he wants

zzz..

.i hate shopping.

tears on my pillow

i've been sick recently and i'm not getting better.
my temperature's been holding steady at 37.3 degrees for the past week
and my throat feels like it's being scraped with sandpaper everytime i try to swallow.
i get irritated easily and have no mood to do anything
i wonder what's wrong

i think i'll see the doc for some medication later on

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a couple of stuff which really annoyed me yesterday
- a person who complains alot (to me), complained that i was complaining about a meal.

n i was like WTF because i wasn't complaining.. >.<

- i've been having difficulty getting to sleep recently. and when i finally did, a mere 1 min later, my dad WOKE me up by asking me to sleep in the other room. i was pissed. that 1 min of "rest" gave me a huge headache.

i couldn't get to sleep till an hour later. =(

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this morning i was washing up and i was wondering why my face was sticky.
i gave no further thought to it till i came to work
sheena immediately asked whether i cried last night or couldn't get to sleep.
apparently my eyes are puffier than normal and my eyebags were huge.
thinking back, i think i must have been crying in my sleep again.

i wonder why

what in the hell is actually bothering me?