memorabilia

was tidying up ken's room when i found photos of a woman holding a baby under his keyboard.
i believe they are photos of his ex
the ex he's trying to get over
a divorcee with what appears to be a baby
hmm
she isn't pretty LOL
normally i wouldn't feel threatened by her
but in this case, i do.. somehow.. just that lil bit

was a lil put off by it
but then i realised
i have photos of jus and espen lying around at home
i even have one of jus buried in a box under my computer table at work
and the framed jigsaw puzzle he gave me is still hanging prominently right over the top of my shelves in my room at home

hmm

after the conversation with jus today
ken told me he wouldn't be comfy with meeting up with my exes (namely jus and espen)
esp since he thinks im not over jus yet

i don't know

this complicated puzzle of the exes seems to come back every so often within our lives
i wonder when we'll actually be able to ditch those memories
and hopefully bask in the love we share someday

that man i wanted and almost married

an interesting window popped up today..
it was jus who hasn't spoken to me ever since we broke up in 2008..
so we had a good catch up session

it was really nice to speak to him again

it even brought back quite a few memories

it was also strange that i could be friendly after hating him for so long

so i finally congratulated him about his wedding


then ken got jealous =D
cos he said the conversation lasted too long
aww~ *happie*
he accused me of missing jus

and at that moment, i wanted to retort about him and his ex-gf

but i caught my tongue in time

so i reassured him that jus's bond with me was in the past

and it will stay in the past

to be honest, i dont miss jus

but the relationship we shared

was a lil too deep for me

it will leave a scar on me for the rest of my life

*emo*

1 of our songs

20-1-2010

Today marks the first day where we declared the relationship online. =) and I can't stop smiling. hehs <3

It isn't the actual first day since we've been dating for quite some time now but actually acknowledging it has definitely taken a load off my mind.

Plus, I didn't realise it but it's a pretty good date too. 20012010. too bad october's too far off. >.<

Anyways, love you all. *hugs*

January the 15

today has been a really weird day for many reasons..

on monday, i told him that i didn't want to be alone today (2nd anniversary of something impt to me) and he totally understood. =) ok, its not as if we've been spending our days/nights apart but we're definitely gg to be together this day/night of jan 15 2010. LOL

Well, we havent been apart since wed (except when we needed to work) and it's been like this for the last few weeks. to the point that i don't need to msg my parents to let them know that i'm staying at his place already cos it's like a given. and it feels good.

its that feeling of living on my own and having my own independance and life which i really enjoy. it's also called freedom if that's what ur asking. =D

mum's been a little curious as to how he looks like. she wants me to bring him home soon. but i dont feel like i should yet.. but soon, soon i will.. im thinking maybe in march, on my dad's bday.

he told me this morning with a poker face as we took the train in to work that he didn't feel like gg to work. but he knows he has to because if he didn't work, where was he gg to get the money to marry me? and it was said in such a silly but adorable way that i totally melted! LOL.. aww.. <3

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had a little weird thing gg on with a couple of friends lately

i think its the unfriend week since i lost 2 off my friend list within a week

strangely, i dont feel it yet

but it was weird

1 of them explained to me why he hadda remove him and i understood

so i explained that i have to remove him too since he was gg to remove my bf off

and he understood

and we wished each other the best

but the other just removed me without a word

a big irony since i was gg to tag her in a BFF post which made me find out she removed me

also supposed to feel like a big thing since she was supposed to be 1 of my BFFs

guess nothing's meant for forever eh?

temporary breaks also breaks up a forever

anyways we all need breaks now and then

who doesn't need a break?

come, let's go, i'll treat u to a kit-kat

<3

new year new blog new life!

heys peeps, just got myself a new blog..

anyways, here would still be where i'd still be blogging about my negative thoughts and whines and complaints.. but i guess i'm gg to have the new blog a lil more upbeat and more current cos im thinking of having it be a lil more public than my old ones..

thanks for staying with me through my turbulent periods, listening to me complain about every single thing and basically being with me when im down.

i love u all! <3