perfect saturday; horrid sunday

so the title says it all.. haha

Saturday seemed to me like the perfect day for chillout
woke up snug in his arms
cooked lunch

Lunch: i made rice, sausage omelette and fried chicken wrapped in beancurd skin :)))

then we played dynasty warriors on ps3
after that, i did some grocery shopping cos i wanted to make dinner

Dinner: Roast Black Pepper Chicken, mashed potato, rabbitfish and country vegetables

i had originally wanted to roast some lamb chops but seeing as cold storage had a promo gg on for chickens at 4.99 so i bought the lamb rack, stored it in the freezer and will be preparing it soon.. =D

went to st james after that.. got bored at 12.30 am and went home.. *yawns*

Sunday started out pretty badly.. Since i left st james around 12.30, i took the keys and went home first.. and he basically got home only at 5+am.. =/ though i trust him pretty much now.. it got me pissed off cos 1) i wasnt able to sleep cos he wasnt home yet 2) i hadda buzz him up so basically i felt like i shldnt slp 3) i got annoyed cos he could have clubbed for maybe 1 or 2 hrs more; instead he clubbed for an additional 4 hrs.. 4) he reeked of alcohol though i left him pretty high at the club already! *sighs*

i didnt sleep that entire night.. its literally a FML right?

then on sunday itself - he left me to finish up the leftover chicken and went out for satay with his female client
didnt hug nor kiss me before he left :(
after that, we went out for dinner with his family bcos of a visiting cousin
then i found something on his hp when he passed it to me to check something (his hands were dirty) ... which really disappointed me and got me wondering about what he does on his phone..

i felt neglected, annoyed and just disappointed..

so tell me, doesnt it sound like what the title suggests? perfect sat; horrid sun
such a balance..

Daddy's Bday

its daddy's bday today

i love daddy

hahaha.. just wanted to say that.. don't know why

i think im missing daddy n the family a lil too much

can't wait to see them all a lil later on..

it's also j's bday today

hmm. nothing much to say about that

LOL

OH, chanced on perez hilton's blog today again..

havent read it in a long long time

and i realised its also perez hilton's bday today..

Happy Birthday Everybody!

Perfect

Living with him has been awesome so far

and everything feels so perfect

i only hope he feels the same way too

<3

2010 is gg a lil too well for my liking

everything seems to be gg so well that im starting to get paranoid again

and it's stressing me so much that im starting to overthink every single little thing once more

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw his family is starting to like me

his 2 cute nieces are forever always hanging around me and

even his sisters are starting to get curious about me

and have been talking to me

hmm, well.. its exactly how they say

that every1 needs time to warm up to each other..

:)

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ken remarked over the wkend

kids and males (at any age) always seem to like me

and u know what i was thinking?

i was thinking, "err, can i say duh?? lol.."

:P

hahaha.. i sound so conceited!!

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i can tell daddy and mummy are missing me

after all, its the 1st time i'm living away from the house

while being in singapore

i have moved out for approx 2+ weeks now

mel says my dad's missing me

cos he sounded sad to her when he said that i dont text him at all

so i texted him this morning

but his reply was short simple and sweet

so i couldnt really tell

but i betcha my mum would get jealous i texted my dad first before i texted her

u know,

i actually do miss my parents

and i do miss my house

but im so so so contented being with someone i love

that i tend to forget about

my life before this

when i was living in australia

daddy tried to instill in me the habit of calling home every sunday

but its honestly too bad that the habit never really took on me

am feeling guilty now

i shall go home over the wkend

:)

anyways, its about time i did my laundry

(though i still have quite a few clean clothes)

the time it almost ended

things came to a head about a couple days ago when we suddenly argued out of the blue
and what's more, we even argued in public..
i felt really terrible
and we almost didn't make it

but we did..... =)

however, things didn't seem to be well the day after
cos the words which were spoken kept running through my mind
and when i went home, i had this strong feeling to check his computer
i then found stuff that made me cry
and think about ending the relationship

i tried not to talk about it cos i wanted to deal with it on my own but failed..
so i eventually woke him in the middle of the night to tell him what i found
he explained that the letter i had found which was addressed to me
was written way way way before we got together
also the photos under his keyboard were of his client

then he called me silly -.-

he comforted me so much that i fell for him again
its deeper now
its deeper for him too
so everything's fine and dandy now

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I was afraid he'll be upset that I checked his computer
so i asked him but he confessed
he had checked my computer before i checked his
and i was like O.O ooooOOOOHHHHHH!

hehehehehe..

our situation's so amusing hahahaha

he told me he read my conversation with ewok
and he got jealous
but it got fine when he realised i was talking about him with ewok

then he called me a flirt (presumably cos of convos with other peeps, i guess)

LOL

i love you's

recently ken remarked that he's been saying "i <3 u"'s to me so much that he reckons he's said it the most to me in just 2 months than with any of his ex-gfs in any of the periods he's been with them for, other than maybe his first love..

so i commented that maybe he was just "psycho-ing" himself to love me and then i laughed.. hahaha

he looked hurt for a second and said no, he really does love me and that why don't i believe him when he says so.. (he thinks im insecure >.<)

i smiled but secretly i am happy.. =D

he also asked if it was said too much.. hahaha..

i said no. =D

every morning

my heart always gives a little leap of joy

when he smiles lovingly at me

everytime he wakes

(even for that second he cracks opens his eyes and falls back asleep straight after)

:D

then he'll keep repeating that he loves me

or he'll cuddle me so tight that

i'll always wake him without fail

when i try to extricate myself from his embrace.