Insomnia

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time, you'll change your mind

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more

Oh i stay up til you're next to me

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love

You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust

And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us

But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah),

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep

Cause it feels like I've fallen for you

It's getting way too deep

And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

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can't sleep lately

the song above says it all

Lately, ken seems to be testing my patience and my tolerance level

I really dont feel I can trust him with the numerous things that have been going on for quite some time now.

(asking girls out, flirting, secretive, always alt-tabbing whenever i go near his computer(not with the intention of screening), getting a blowjob shooter from victoria)

I did a blowjob shooter with jus once.

I felt it should only be done between couples or if you're single.

how do i continue loving without trust?

and to top it off, without me having to quarrel with him

God, I pray, help me to cast my fears aside

for they're eating me from within

I told him last night

he is fun to be with

and i always feel happy whenever im with him

i love him

but i dont feel like i will marry "fun"

sometimes i wonder

do his ex-girlfriends (the ones he thinks are so awesome) honestly don't care about his capricious flirtatious attitude?
.i dont think they loved him.

or if they did, they'd prob never saw a future with him anyways