besties

dear shee and jaz,

:)

can't wait to see u guys soon

though its for a farewell dinner

:(

love

wen

keys to the hearth

spotted: random goodlooking guy in my office.. this happens rather rarely (like maybe once in three months.. hehehe) but when it does, my day turns a lil brighter.. :)

and the new colleague who took over bestie shee's place is very very very stupid.. oh well, it'll be a really big exam on my patience.. so far so good though she irritates me pretty much hourly.. *sigh*

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kenny surprised me yesterday with something we've both never done before
he secretly duplicated his key and bought a new access card for me
it's the first time he's done this for a girlfriend
hinting that he wants to be with me "long-term"

which is good :))

it's also the first time i've gotten keys to a boyfriend's place
feels rather awesome hahahaa
feels like we're taking that giant big step into cementing our relationship

words can't describe how stunned i was when i got the keys
words also can't describe how annoyed he was when he said i chucked the keys away
LOL

but it was honestly cos i really didn't know how to react
i need to do something for him in return
in need of ideas now

arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

i promise not to bring up the words 'break up' anymore

was talking with kenneth about some issues which weren't serious
when i suddenly joked about breaking up

afterwhich there was this really bad awkward silence
and i felt really bad for joking about it

so we had a short discussion on that

and about ten minutes later,
he messaged me on fb

10:14pm Kenneth
i love you.. very much.. :\
it kindda breaks my heart everytime u say that.. pls dont say it anymore.. :\

my heart melted
i love him so much now
that it's scaring me =(

im gg to try my best for this relationship
i'll try to be more open-minded just like how i am with my guy friends
and be more accepting of his faults/weaknesses

Dear God, i pray..
bless us please
for we love u and i know u love us too
amen