rantings

HATE

it's a word i hate to use

n i hate what u do to me

i'm not your plaything whom u contact whenever you're "free"

u don't disappear for weeks and then complain when my life picks up without u in it

i don't believe u when you say you don't even have a min to call me

and then i hear you going fishing and spending time with ur friends

then suddenly out of the blue, have the urge to call me at bloody 2 or 3am

just so as to string me along

and better still, have an argument even when we're not together

if u say u want to spend the rest of your life with me,

u'll spare some time and all my pictures would have had ur face in them.

but i say WHATEVER, shawn.

ur all bloody talk and no action.

pls dun tell me u know wad u want cos honestly,

ur doing a shit job of showing sincerity in wooing me

n all ur doing is complaining about my "lifestyle"

i dun fucking care anymore.

a short excerpt from msn

Dean says:
i banker lah i only logic rule the heart
Dean says:
and women are high risk investments
shar says:
LOL
shar says:
bankers are playboys
shar says:
sigh
Dean says:
only bcos we dont want to get played out by the girls
Dean says:
chasing women is a art much like chess
Dean says:
u cant put all ur eggs in one basket
Dean says:
the idea here is to diversify to control high risk
Dean says:
LOL
shar says:
LOL

liar liar pants on fire

.some1's lied to me today.

if it's not one, it's the other

am in the midst of figuring it out though it looks pretty clear

.well, i nva liked liars.

n i say good riddance

m thinking of cutting the whole group off

yeah man, shld do that!

LOL

d past comes aknockin

~SHARLENE is having d most fun talking to esp again~

it's like we nva stopped the communication for 2 years??!!

*blah blah blah*

"like seriously, what's there to life? it's so meaningless."

*blah blah blah* party late into the night *blah blah blah* meet more playas *blah blah blah* ignore these playas *blah blah blah* met old friends *blah blah blah* meet new friends *blah blah blah* meet decent guys *blah blah blah* bored***

seems like the rhythm of my current life. so meaningless. told him it was boring.

i stand corrected

-need a goal soon. or i'll seriously lose my mind-

i have no need for more friends

i have no need for more drama

i have no need for small boys

~i do however, might need money~

spent way too too too much

damnit.

have gotten rid of m. now, i wonder who im meeting next?

One Last Cry

My shattered dreams and broken heartAre mending on the shelfI saw you holding hands, standing close to someone elseNow I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was goneI gave my best to you, nothing for me to doBut have one last cryChorus:One last cry, before I leave it all behindI've gotta put you outta my mind this timeStop living a lieI guess I'm down to my last cryCry......I was here, you were thereGuess we never could agreeWhile the sun shines on youI need some love to rain on meStill I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was goneGotta get over you, nothing for me to doBut have one last cryChorus:One last cry, before I leave it all behindI've gotta put you outta my mind this timeStop living a lieI know I gotta be strongCause round me life goes on and on and onAnd on.....I'm gonna dry my eyesRight after I had myOne last cryChorus:One last cry, before I leave it all behindI've gotta put you outta my mind for the very last timeBeen living a lieI guess I'm downI guess I'm downI guess I'm down...To my last cry...

emo-ing

goodness, am feeling rather emo today.. which is rather strange considering i havent been emo for the entire month of oct till now..

all chow's fault.. damnit..

*bleh*

i miss j.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

am running away from mark too

LOL

*screwed up*

quarter of century

my bday is coming.. ^^ it's this sat!

and even though it isn't what i would do at this age, i think my celebration's going to be good.. hehehe.. 3 bottles minimum.. n a small group of maybe less than 20 peeps coming?

hahahahaha.. SMASHING! whee! am so excited! botak's coming!!! lol.. he's going to be soooo fun!!! i tell u, this guy can drink a f*ckload and go crazy with me, man.. HAHAHA.. plus he just broke up with his gf so we can go wild!!!!

anyways, m's promised to shut his eyes tomoro cos im still considered "single" and he's not allowed to get jealous.. HAHA.. hilarious.. plus he's opening barcardi 151... so he's definitely going to be drunk.. :P

i wish j2 aka my phantom could come though.. he's in reservist now.. i gotta admit, i honestly really haf a small crush on this fella.. hahahahaha.. smart (cambridge!!/masters), handsome, charismatic, well-to-do, well-travelled.. i'm pretty sure he's also a playboy and there shld be girls swarming all over him.. he's a challenge.. and not a risk i'm willing to take.. =X

o wells, my boy m will be around.. he's always around me now.. can't do much with any1 else, i guess.. HAHAHA..

hmm.. dear s, i hope ur doing fine since ur always so busy. we were supposed to spend my bday together, cos i promised u that.. lemme know ur plans asap k? or i'll arrange mine.. tk care.. ciao**

OH OH OH.. did i tell u? M wrote a song for me! and it sounds damn nice lor.. lyrics, arrangement, music... damn cool.. hahahahaha.. it's meant to be 1 of my bday presents.. ^^

i'm dreaming of my 4k louis vuitton bag.. btw i tink m's making a montage of photo frames for me. cos i tink DIY is damn cool now.. and d tot is more sincere.. ^^

26 and 35?

sry sry.. my bad..

1 of the guys actually told me he was 26 in a prior text..

sorry, girl.. my mistake..

i dunno how i ever got the number 35? LOL..

sometimes, u just get amazed and amused at the things guys say

i had a recent encounter where 2 guys lied that they were 35.

LOL.. lo and behold, i find out that they're not 35. they are in fact, 25, just a year older than i am.

well, i hope they were certainly offended when i readily digested the fact that they were 35.

~ROFL~ hilarious.