ok.. for this post, i gotta give u a lil background..
i've got this friend where we had a lil history when i was about 21 years old. it didn't really develop into anything and was totally an innocent matter that got nipped in the butt really quickly with the arrival of espen (my 2nd love). but anyways, late last year, his "gf" at that time contacted me.
apparently they were having some problems, and she needed to clarify a few matters with me, namely "why didn't i get together with him in the past?" and so i did, i told her i was going off to study. and at that time, he wasn't the only one who was chasing me. in fact, quite a number of people were after me at that point in time.
we spoke on the phone for abit. and i let her vent her frustrations out on me cos i felt she needed an outlet just like i did when i first broke up with ewok, my first love.. after that brief contact, we didn't talk again.. at this point, i must elaborate, she spoke bad of him quite abit and though i was able to take it, i was a lil skeptical. however, i didnt speak to my friend about this cos i felt it wasn't my place to stick my head in, my head might get chopped off you know!!! LOL
anyways, just an hour ago, i was speaking to my friend (it's like our annual chat, a really once in a blue moon chat) and the topic of her naturally came up because even though i m not part of it. nor am i taking sides, i felt that if there was still love in the relationship, you had to work hard to get past the problems and eventually find happiness, but i digress, i was still trying to get them to work things out. but he tells me they've broken up since last year....
suddenly he also tells me something really weird. apparently, she found my old blog. and according to him, also keeps talking about me nonstop...... in fact, he said she confronts him about me v consistently.. btw i really haf no idea why.. LOL.. and to make matters a lil stranger, he told me she called me a bimbo after reading my old blog.. LOLOLOLOLOL... (yeah, she's smart, really, according to marcus, cos he's damn smart too so i feel smart to be linked to these two, man! LOL)
but honestly, i dun really give a shit. so what if you call me a bimbo? ur entitled to ur opinions. plus, i really dun give a rat's ass because i rather not portray myself as some1 real clever but actually fall short. plus, its very relaxing to be known as a bimbo. wahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
why try so hard to look smart? i'd readily admit that im not smart. in fact, my head contains more air than my ass. and i tink i fart quite alot already. LOL. jokes**
so charlene, honestly, take my word for it. though we have the "same" name, and he has had affections for us both in his past. i m not ur rival.
u make my head swell when i tink of how u tracked my old blog down. honestly. thx for the bimbo compliment as well! call me when u haf d time, we'd go do some bimbotic things so as to get u a lil less intense.
o and the 20+ msges u bombard him everyday even though u 2 have broken up? what's with that? that's not the advice i gave u. i told u to work things through. not force urself on him! i feel so sorry for him sia.. u seem a lil psychotic now.. but then again, as i told him, there are always 2 sides to a story. if u needa talk, just gimme a call.. im really a nice person once u get to know me. am blur at times, but u can just put it down to me being an airhead!
but u seem a lil scary to me now. i can just imagine u spouting nonsense about me. >.>
o and btw, marcus didn't lead me on, neither did i. and we definitely did not sleep together. we were only 20 for god's sake IN AN INNOCENT ERA. so stop ur lies and gossip about me at least.. thanks a lot!!!
love
shar aka bimbotic model
ps: i hope u found this new blog too. lemme know k? im too lazy to track urs down if u haf 1. but really, thanks. u just gave my ego a mega boost. ^^
pps: i do hope u dun give marcus such a hard time. he really is a good chap and friend. and though he's really goodlooking, we really don't have anything romantic between us.......
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i think you should know the rough outline how the harrassment escalated.
do you know each time he makes larger purchases he comes to borrow money from me?
do you know why he doesn't not have money? partly because his parents refuse to give, you know why? he didn't want to study or work. he did nothing but play computer games.
that was the period he asked me for help, unfortunately, i needed help myself, when i asked him he labelled that as harrassment. he told me he cannot help & went back to play computer games.
now you know why i'm so angry?
that wasn't the first time it happened.
he wanted 2.5years of no questions asked, because he set out to hide things and lie. as a gf i'm entitled to know. he feed alot of people with bullshit, and he totally believes in it and convince himself he's victim.
you know he insisted he 'loved' and didn't 'make use' of me. that's how he showed his love.
Last Sat, when he asked me out he said 'I'm considering to get a new mac laptop'. I think you should know my first thought by now.
He asked me out just to tell me that. Can u imagine? He acted like he did nothing wrong the whole time.
You should ask him what he msged me this morning at 2.20am.
do you know he had so many chances to clarify things, he refuses to. when it snowballs, he'll brush it aside and say too many things what a mix up. he contributed to that nonsense, then later play the victim again.
each time he asks me out instead of solving the prob, he adds more prob. like the laptop nonsense. my 'harrassment' was to tell him to stop spending on things he cannot afford. even when he has the money, if he overspends he goes around borrowing. he just wanted me to accept his bullshit excuses as answers. in fact all my harrassment was to tell him to stop his nonsense.
did he tell you how he lie to his parents for money because he didn't want to depend on himself when he could? he's not handicap you know? have you seen how he treated his family?
have you witnessed the extreme difference how he behaves 'too nicely' in front of outsiders?
when he makes a mistake, he just hopes that no one will know, brush it aside & he won't do anything to compensate.
if you want to know him inside out, i think you should know how to ask the right questions then you will get a clearer picture. or he'll never tell.
Oh i forgot, you should ask him whether he himself called you bimbo/airhead.
anyway i have to thank you, but i wished i read this post much earlier. then i wouldn't have to have him last sat and wonder what is he up to again. ask him what exactly happened on saturday.
i'll apologise for calling you an airhead based on the blog. maybe you should ask marc for an apology too, for knowing you and still calling you that.
last dec until mid march. i was harrassing for $100. after he returned. about early april he borrowed $30. 25april he returned my $30. you know it wasn't because i'm being calculative over the amount. the fact that i even bother to lend him $350 at a shot previously says it. as long as my friends need help i would help, but of course for valid reasons. not because he refuse to do something about himself. april 24 he complained to you. 2 may, he ask me out all he said was 'i'm considering to get a mac laptop and nothing about us'. you get the time frame & why i'm fucking angry right? i'm being treated like an atm while he claims he loves me alot.
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