the clouds have lifted

am wondering what the hell is wrong with the guys in singapore now.

there're no more good guys.. all they want is fun fun fun.. u cannot believe how many guys have queried me for 1 night stands. it's utterly disgusting.. and no, i'll never be able to do that.. that's just wrong.. this makes me sad for singapore's future, man.. gosh.

granted, im only putting myself out on the dating scene so that i can get over my grief. but it's good clean fun.. i learn about people's life experiences, absorb new life ideals, check out good makan/chill-out places and even maybe try out new activities (such as fishing, which i may do soon, i guess) so yeah, =) basically only trying to make myself happy.. and it's all safe.. these are pple whom i've at least known for years.. but just nva given enough time to know them properly..

but just last night, at least 2 pple have questioned what the hell im doing. cos they're worried about my flighty behaviour n the outlook i present to others.. they believe strongly in karma and that they're worried for my next relationship since i always seem to attract malicious gossip my whole life.. i really dunno why.. my entire life has been a drama.. i tell u, i can write a book regarding my experiences and it MIGHT be a bestseller.. hahahaha.. but yeah, i know they care for me. and i really appreciate it. thank you!

explanation: so its like, some1 remarked last week that i used to date 5 guys at a time.. well, that's true, i dun deny that.. in fact i dunno if it was 5 guys or mayb more.. depends on the period of time.. but at this point, i need to reiterate.. it was good clean dating (going out etc) and we all were happy in a non-exclusive relationship.. in fact, i may be doing that again soon.. cos i still havent really found anybody interesting enough to capture my interest.. n as i said, im not into temporary relationships..

but it's going to b hard.. not hard to find guys.. but hard to find guys who i'll be interested in.. im not into looks as my true friends know.. and character is basically wad singaporean guys are losing at the moment.. haha.. maybe i really do need to start afresh in another country as sheena says.. haha..

however, i am at least lucky to find at least one anchor to keep me sane.. to mr s. whom shirley, susan, sheena and even my mom has met.. (jaz, u didnt want to meet him cos u dun wanna create a bad impression.. =P) yeah, i know i said im not interested in him at the moment but haha. ok.. u know thats wad i always say about the guys i'll eventually be with.. dunno la.. i really dunno wad the future brings for me.. but at the moment, it looks really bright.. =)

to u : "ur the reason im smiling again. thank you. and if ur reading this which i dunno, yes. i do care for u enough to look forward to the future. *MUAHX*"