somehow i wish what happened yesterday was just a dream
a very bad dream
all i needed to hear was a little bit of reassurance
instead he just confirmed my doubts and told me what i was dreading to hear
that he was just afraid to lose me all along
that he didn't have much feelings for me at all when he asked me to be his gf
(that he asked me because he knew that if i did get a bf who wasn't him, he'll basically be expendable and he would fall off my list of priorities)
(although he says now that his feelings did develop when we were together)
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it didn't hurt as much i thought it would
maybe cos i still had a defensive barrier these past few weeks we were together
he also said we bicker too much
but you know what i think, we wouldn't bicker at all if i was happy
and all i needed to be happy was if i could feel something coming from him.
so simplistic in theory yet so hard to achieve
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im a lil disgusted by the response triggered at the simple thought of me being single
pack of wolves howling with laughter at my door
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despite all this, i still want to be with him =(
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